What Is Depression?

Depression is not just sadness.

Depression is not just walking around with a frown on your face and a grey cloud over your head.

Depression is not just being mopey and gloomy.

Depression is feeling defeat when you try again and again to change your situation, only to end up right back at the beginning again.

Depression is anger because you feel trapped in a glass jar, and no matter how you batter against the walls, they won't crack.

Depression is fear that things will always stay the same, that things will never get any better.

Depression is frustration that all your attempts to "get better" aren't working.

Depression is guilt, because so many people "have it worse than you", but you can't seem to trivialize how you feel enough to make it not matter.

Depression is comedy and drama, in an attempt to hide your true feelings.

Depression is rising to your knees one day, then your feet the next, and then getting slammed flat on your back the third.

Depression is finding methods to escape the feelings so you don't have to face them.

Depression is dwelling on your feelings and allowing them to drown you.

Depression is when you feel like screaming and smashing your head into a wall, but you smile brightly and comment on the weather.

Depression is when your tears rise up in your throat and strangle you because you can't or won't let them out.

Depression is crying for no reason at all.

Depression is not wanting to cry because it would be pointless anyways.

Depression is your emotions all out of whack, responding inappropriately to situations, or wondering why your head can't make sense of things for ONCE.

Depression is feeling like there is no escape... that the darkness that encloses you will eventually consume you.

Depression is wondering if you did something to cause the darkness.

Depression is wondering if you deserve the darkness.

Depression is wondering if you are the darkness.

Depression is hiding from those you love, to keep from "infecting" them.

Depression is feeling exhausted all day, but unable to sleep at night.

Depression is feeling like you're on a hamster wheel... running and running yet staying in one spot.

Depression is mood swings for no reason.

Depression is wishing you could just give up but knowing you can't.

Depression is veiling your emotions from people, then getting angry when they are unsympathetic.

Depression is being upset about your inability to just "snap out of it."

Depression is helping others, but being unable to help yourself.

Depression is believing that you don't deserve help.

Depression is believing that you don't even need help.

Depression is the inability to see that there is help.

Depression is pride that will not allow others to see you vulnerable.

Depression is afraid of the hurtful remarks that inevitably come.

Depression is not a word that you throw around when you feel misunderstood and want to give someone a guilt trip.

Depression is something that you hide from your most intimate friends.

Depression is listening to people talk about "rose-colored glasses" and wishing you had a pair.

Depression is not an attitude.

Depression is an illness.

And like any illness, depression has to be understood before it can be helped.

Please educate yourself.

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